Hang Ups

You can do better than me.
But I can't do better than you.
-Death Cab For Cutie.

Often times, when I am alone and sitting in my apartment (which I often am), I wonder if I am supposed to be out doing something else. If perhaps I am wasting my life away, sitting inside by myself, watching tv shows online. I feel like I should get involved in something else that will take my time and energy but that I also enjoy. On the other hand, I feel that taking on another project would be too much for me right now, and I should just focus on finishing school and once I'm done with that I can take on something else. I don't know what, exactly...

I long for activity that gets me outside and around like-minded people. Something active, inexpensive, that requires dedication and energy, but isn't all consuming either. Gah!

Everyone says they felt disconnected and lost during their twenties. It makes me feel a bit better to hear that what I'm feeling isn't abnormal and that maybe eventually I'll feel more grounded.